Everything in the world is just stressing me out right now. I feel like there’s honestly no time for anything. I can’t focus my attention on one thing without neglecting my other responsibilities, which honestly sucks. And when when I just want to get away from it all, it just ends up becoming wasted time and these regrets start to encase my thoughts. School, friends, Circle K, personal aspirations, fucking writing class, it’s not all a good combination to be honest.
When you’re having a bad day, sometimes the best remedy to it will always be a nice, warm hug from someone you care about. Just the feeling of their embrace makes you feel safe and comfortable - that no matter what burdens you’re carrying right now, everything will be okay. Verbal support is alleviating, but being able to physically feel their friendship is something worth more.. It is also a great self reassurance that deep down, the person giving you that hug cares about your well-being equally as much as you care for theirs.
Anonymous asked: you'll get through. I believe in you. Don't lose hope. It will get better. <3
It’s these times at night where I start to worry about the smallest of things. I felt my side start to hurt again and my first assumption is that their diagnosis of me was wrong. These thoughts rushing through my head again not knowing what’s going on with me. I’m scared, and scared shtless. They told me not to worry much, but all I am right now is worry. Waiting for that check up on the 26th. Hope everything is alright.
It’s actually quite amazing knowing millions on millions of people watch the rose parade on TV every year, and a good chunk also come all the way to Pasadena just to watch it in person. Sort of sad, I live down the street from the rose parade, yet I don’t make the effort to go watch it in person, LOL. Literally, down the street.
- Kisama - Japanese
- As to thialo - Greek
- Dorme mecum - Latin
- Javla - Swidish
- Fick dich - German
- Cao ni - Mandarin
- Fuck you - English
- Ssibal - Korean
- Chodela - Hindi
- PUTANG INA MONG HAYOP KANG ANIMAL KA MAMATAY KA NGAYON DIN PAKYU KA ULOL BOBO NANAY MO TANGA TATAY MO ULOL KA MAGPAKAILANMAN! - Filipino (Tagalog)
Lmfao crazy filipinos
I’ve sort of lost sight of Christmas over the years. I remember when I was little, Christmas used to be such a magical day where I enjoyed eating food with my parents, sitting around and watching movies, unwrapping gifts from under our tree, and just spending time with them. Now it’s just usually spent in my bed, under my sheets, watching youtube videos all day just to help time fly by. The minute I wake up on Christmas, I just want it to be over already. Because in a way, it sort of disheartens me seeing how much fun and joy everyone else is having on Facebook, Instagram, and everywhere else. Families playing Just Dance together, trees with gifts almost as high as the tree itself, and families taking photos together to commemorate another year celebrating Christmas. I don’t really have any of that. The most I probably unwrapped today was the granola bar I had as a snack earlier. I haven’t unwrapped a present or received a gift on Christmas in almost 10 years. I know it sounds sort of materialistic of me to want something, but I guess what I really want, no matter what the gift is, is the satisfaction that someone out there thought of me while they were making gifts, or Christmas in general. But yeah, I don’t know. Christmas doesn’t really have the same meaning to me anymore. I try my best to play it off and be happy as well, but deep down it just doesn’t feel right lying to myself. Oh Christmas. I miss all the food, the fun opening gifts, and all the family warmth you feel. But now, it honestly just feels like any other day.